Well... my xbox is being fixed and I should have it back in a few weeks. I never realized how much of a nerd I was until my video gamers were taken away *sigh* lately I have been very aware of gender and gender roles. I don't know where I fall on the gender spectrum but I have come to notices that the way I look, my body is very petit, my facial features are extremely feminine but on the inside I don't feel like this. As a kid I played with sports I played with lego and I played with everything a normal little boy would play with and only hung out with boys. As a teenager I didn't like wearing dresses or any feminine clothes for that matter. Now as an adult I am a mix of both genders. I have day where I feel like binding and wearing my brothers clothes, and others in which well.... i wouldn't say that I feel like wearing dresses but I like being viewed as a girl. But no matter the way I look on the outside I always feel the same way on the inside. Anyways, thats all I have for now.
Peace.
hey i just wanted to let you know that i'm reading this (i saw a link to your blog on tumblr) and that you're not the only person in the world who feels this way. i don't think you need a label and i certainly don't want to tell you who you are or what to call the way you feel because only you can decide that for yourself. i just want to say that feeling like you're a non op trans person isn't a contradiction. if it's who you are, then that's all that matters. if binding one day works for you and being seen as female the next day also works, then let it be. about your pronouns, when you feel comfortable enough to come out as non-gender conforming to the people around you, i hope you'll be able to share with them how being called "he" makes you feel. i also hope you can share with them your gender fluidity and how you feel like a mix of 2 genders. i realize that gender is a confusing and important part of your life. please don't let it consume you. and never stop searching for who you are and who you feel comfortable being. make sure that any conclusions you come to about your gender are for you and not for someone else's peace of mind. i wish you the best and feel free to contact me here or on tumblr (no1knowshername.tumblr.com)
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