hey guys

Hey everyone it's been a while sense I wrote anything. I just wanted to let you all know I'm still around. I have been really busy latly with work and junk.  I have been binding more often now (using an ace bandage) I have gone out wearing it a few times but never when I was going to see someone that I know I love the feeling of binding and being able to... well not exactly pass but have people question who I am but wearing it is a bit unconfortable and my heart goes out to all they guys that where one every day. It must be really unconfortable for long periods of time. I still don't think I'm ready to talk about any of this to anyone it yet. I have told my girlfriend that I am questioning my gender and she said "be whatever you want to be" I know she would be suportive no matter what but her comment made me feel like this is something I'm choosing to do.
Right now I am still going by female pronouns and a female name but I have really been thinking about the name Shane latly. I really like it for some reason. Anyways I'm meeting one of my friends at the gym in an hour so I got to go. Thanks for reading.
Peace

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What about my family?

Labels and binding.

      Labels are a strange thing they seem to be really important for for people, some could care less and some think that labels are ridiculous and people shouldn't be labeled. I myself have to agree that people shouldn't label others. However if someone wants to label themselves then that's perfectly fine. Some people need that label there to know who they are and that there are other people who identify the same way. I for example really wish I could find a label for how I feel about my gender and find people who feel the same way. I guess gender queer would be the closest thing I have to a label right now.
     Because of the fact that I am still working through all of this myself right now I don't feel that I should come out right now. I started a new job on Monday and I tried my best to stay as gender neutral as possible, I actually had someone call me he but then someone I knew from high school came and blew my "cover." So thats the end of that idea.
     On another note, I tried binding for the first time last night just using an ace bandage. I have a rather small chest so it worked out really well and I really liked the results. :) I kept it on for a few hours well I was at home. Hopefully I will get the courage to go out binded pretty soon though I'm still sure I wouldn't pass.

Sorry for the weird entry guys, I haven't posted in a few days and I had a lot of scattered thoughts to get off my chest
Peace